Just take a moment and think about everything that has happened in the last year or two. This is simply and easy because of the obvious everyone will say a lot sure has changed.
Two years ago I was finishing up high school and had just staeted my first job around this time. It was set to be the best summer ever, the last free for all before I left some of my best friends for college. It was also the summer that I got my first boyfriend. I thought that a first love was everything. He was amazing but he also had to other guys I compared him to. The months of summer were great for us and we loved each other. Come August when I was still determined to go to college and follow my dreams, he seemed to of supported me all the way. The first six months were ups and way more downs then I ever wanted to count. I thought that was love and that was how it worked. Then in February I whole world was crushed. He ended us. One thing was the heartache that I never wanted to feel again. That was how spring break went that year for mw. I could not wait to return to school and escape him, my home town, and all of the feelings I did not want to deal with. At the time it was simply to much for me ti handle. Ignoring the feelings worked well until April come and the semester was over. It is not easy to ignore something when the time comes to move back home.
One year ago I had just moved home for college a month ago and I hated that I wa not going back to school in the fall. I was emotionally resentful and done. Anything that had to do with love and relationships a no go. I would tell people that love did not exist and that love was a big lie and it was evil. The trust be told I was scared of being hurt again and never wanted the feeling of losing a piece of me again. Even the most hateful person on love never gave up. In September I joined some dating websites and let my friends set up a few dates. I learned my friends and me have very different ideas of guys and there not allowed to pick for me. I had tons of bad luck on websites as well. In November, when I was done, tired of trying and just about ready to delete everything, someone had sent me a message. I though t to myself this will be my last try. We talked for almost a month before the first date, and when we meet we clicked and wore matching shirts. That night we talked and laughed like best friends it was amazing. I never thought I would connect with someone so well. I am so luck thatone date turned into several more with him and I am blessed to still see where things are going with us.
Now I sit and think about the last year or two of my life and it is crazy to see how things have changed. One thing that I remember from my first relationship was him telling me the nigh t we broke up that I would find someone better. I thought he was saying that as a way to be nice at the moment becuase I never believed him. I realized he was telling me the truth and I am so lucky to have found my one in a million. I never thought I could love someone that why I do now. I never believed that I was worth someone loiving me this much. I found the man that reminds me every day that I am beautiful and he instist that I make his life better by being in it. Crazy. Every time I put myself down he comes at me with a million reasons why what I said was wrong. I love that so much more than he will ever know.
I can not believe how life has changed so much in what feels like no time at all.
Til next time,